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Name: David
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Gender: Male
Interests: I love music and I love to sing. I enjoy playing video games. I don't play as much as I used to though. My friends are awesome. I love you guys.
Expertise: I don't know what I have an expertise in. I really like to make people laugh and I think I do a pretty good job of it.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  davebooman
Member Since:
8/5/2005
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| Wow, so it's been quite a long while since i've last made a blog.
A lot has gone on in the last year, well seems that a lot has anyway.
I've been married over a year now which is fun. At least I've been able to commit to something that long. It seems to be a problem with me, I dropped out of my third collegiate school last fall and it's frustrating. I can't seem to buckle down and just get a degree. Also been living in chicago for the past 10 months and it sucks. This place is so expensive and full of materialistic people that are to busy for anything but themselves. I want to move back to a small town or the country.
The last 4-5 months have kinda been a downer. I had a crap job. Played to much video games. I just feel like I've been floating along in life and accomplishing nothing. My brother and I were talking a few nights ago about life and other such things. He seems to have his life together. I'm jealous. He is a youth minister at a good church, he's having a baby in less than a month, and has a great marriage.
I've been feeling depressed (hate using that word, it seems so strong) for awhile now but didn't want to talk to anyone about the fact that need to grow up has been doing it to me. The idea of going to a job, getting home, watching TV or something, going to bed, and waking up and doing it all over again has just been a completely depressing thought in my head. My brother asked me, "have you ever had a sort of Pre- mid life crisis?" and he nailed it on the head. It made me so happy he brought this up and has felt that way before. I wasn't alone in my feelings.
I need to get back to God as well. My relationship with him has drastically slipped over the past year or so. I don't pray anymore, going to church has been a challenge in and of itself. I think that may have something to do with why I can't figure out what the hell I wanna do with my life.
Sorry that my first blog back is sort of depressing, but it's an outlet. Hopefully there are still people out there that read this stuff. I miss you guys.
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| It sure has been awhile since I've made an entry. So for those of you who care, here you go, and those of you who don't, well screw you.
Ok, so a lot has happened in the last two months.
- I started working at Perkins, it's nice, pretty good money, but still, a job. So now I work 40 hours a week between 2 jobs and have 13 credit hours (doesn't sound like much but with my Mass Comm. major it's more like 16). So if some of you were wondering why you never see me, this is a pretty good reason why. Doesn't mean I don't love you guys.
- I started dating this girl named Amy pretty much in the beginning of December, things were going ok and I liked her and all, but I started to feel like I wouldn't ever be able to love her, like it wasn't going to go anywhere, and I decieved myself into thinking that I didn't like my previous girlfriend. So I ended that relationship which directly resulted in point number 3.
- So during Semester one, while being single (keep in mind it was only like 2 months) I had managed to make not only one or two new friends, but and entire group kinda came along with those one or two people. Yeah pretty cool, except I managed to get them all to hate me within about a month after they befriended me. I actually felt that most of these people were cool and really enjoyed hanging out with them but I guess I burned down that bridge. I'm just trying not to dwell on it.
- Emily and I are back together. It's nice, real nice. I think we're really good together. That's all I'm gonna say about that cuase if you care, you've already asked and I've already told you the whole of it.
Well, I hope to keep writing in this, and I hope that if you were confused about somethings about me that I cleared them up, or that you just enjoyed the info.
Bye
Ray, if you are reading this, any chance I can get you a blank CD and get a copy of this whole cd so that I don't just have the one song. | | |
| Ok so I haven't had an entry in awhile so you can all quit cryin about it now and watch this video, I forgot about it until Jerry reminded me. It's some pretty funny shit.
http://www.bofunk.com/video/717/kenny_rogers_does_jackass.html | | |
| SERIOUSLY, who poops in an apron. Sorry Ian. | | |
| Ok, so through this whole breakup thing/me trying to change my life, I feel like I've become a different person. I don't like it. I feel like I'm no longer the same fun outgoing person that I once was. I don't know that many people and when new people talk to me, I don't make an effort to continue the conversation. I've become this boring person that just keeps to himself. I was told today by a girl that I barely know that I smelled fantastic and she gave me a hug. It made my day better. Amazing what a small compliment and a hug can do for a person. I'm not always totally sure why I'm not happy anymore. I suppose it's the fact that I miss having someone to care about and who cares about me. I miss kissing, I miss holding someone, or being held. That's my problem though, I need to be ok without that stuff. It's weird, I've kinda been depressed lately, and all the while growing up I was so optomistic and was never down at all. I looked at people in highschool who were depressed and didn't understand how they could get that way. Please pray for me.
I wish I could afford to just drive somewhere for a week. | | |
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